Then

Even if these lines and fragments of these letters do not accurately express our innermost thoughts, or surrounded by oppression, injustice, and the silence of the heart and the pen, and everything that squanders the innocence of love, or comprehend the language of the eyes, or reading between the letters, and all of this is not from the defense of the ego in your absence, but what called it is the fading of joy from practicing his victory, so that sadness remains in our lives as a spoon of sugar for cold coffee, and praise be to God in that.